Friday, June 7, 2013

My Thoughts on Make Up

So I figured out something to write about. I think this one should actually have depth. I wish I was a better writer, but oh well. Beware: This is a very bitter post.

Make up.

This is Eva Longoria both with and without make up.
I am NOT using this picture to say that Eva is more beautiful with make up. I am using it to say that she is less beautiful with make up. 


There's this blog called "The Rules Revisited" that's written by this guy who thinks he knows how every guy in the world thinks. He has a post entitled "What Men Think of You Without Makeup". Can I first just say that if you "grow less disappointed" in something, it actually means that you're getting more proud of it, right? I don't know. I just feel like this guy is an idiot. It also doesn't make sense that he first says women are incorrect in believing that men are more turned on by seeing you in your natural state. Yet later he states that it is intimate to see a girl without make up. He tells us to not use the second one as an excuse, but to me it just sounds like this fool can't make up (punny ha!) his mind. I just stumbled across his blog and it's rather amazing how much it aggravates me. This is a description of his blog:

I've dated countless women and it has always amazed me how little they know about men. If nothing else, this blog is an outlet for voicing my astonishment at the typical female's ignorance of the male mindset. At most, it is a reliable source of information for women who want to improve their chances with the opposite sex.

If that doesn't make you feel good about yourself as a woman, I don't know what will. He also says that us "taking a break from being beautiful for him" (not wearing make up) is exactly like him taking a break from being confident for us. WHAT THE FREAKING POOP??? I am fairly positive that confidence is part of your personality. It's not just something that you generally pick up and set down on command. You can't just "take a break" from confidence for the heck of it. Wearing make up on the other hand, is something that you physically have to do. It's an extra step every morning. Whereas you cannot put on confidence, you must put on make up. I do not even think the two are comparable. Not to mention, BEAUTY IS NOT MAKE UP. It shows how truly shallow this guy is if he thinks that we are immediately not beautiful without make up. I was talking to someone just today that said some girls "need" make up, because they feel so insecure without it. It's because of guys like this that we feel that way.

Can I share with you the reasons why I choose NOT to wear make up? I don't even care if you said no. Here it goes.

1. It takes so much pooping time. You know how long it takes me to get ready in the morning? Probably about 10-20. If guys think that it doesn't take time to do make up, they are mistaken. I have sat with girls who have been wearing make up for a good 8 years or so, and it still takes them AT LEAST 20 minutes and that's not when they're going out either. Also, you have to take it off every night. That probably adds up to like 7 months of your life spent on makeup (I really have no idea, but think about it). 
2. It's money that doesn't need to be spent. Period.
3. Let's be honest here. In high school, it was always  SO apparent when a girl was sick/tired/grounded. This is because of the immense difference make up makes. I'm just saying, I would much rather have people be surprised, because I look better than normal, rather than surprised in a negative way.
4. I would like for my husband to fall in love with my makeupless face. He's going to be seeing a lot of it, so he might as well think I'm beautiful in it. If dumb "I know everything about everything" boy is right though, I am never going to get married, because I will never be beautiful without make up.
5. I get compliments on my skin quite often. I believe that this is because I choose not to wear make up. Make up gets you into this vicious cycle where it causes more blemishes, and then you put more on to cover up those blemishes over and over again.
6. I in no way feel like myself when wearing make up. I'll admit, occasionally, when dressing up, it can be fun. But if I'm going to the grocery store, there is absolutely no reason for me to be wearing make up. Thus, it makes me uncomfortable. 

So, I encourage women to throw out the idea that they have to get dolled up for sex. That we all should "take great pleasure in adorning ourselves". That men don't expect as to look hot without make up. 

You are beautiful. 

And with that. I'm out. 




Thursday, June 6, 2013

SUMMER. LOVE.

I'm sitting at work today and there is literally nothing I could be doing. Alright, so there's probably something I could do right now, but I don't really know what that is. I've already visited facebook several times and looked up Bachelorette Party Ideas for girls under 21. Oh and I also researched the definitions of soup and cereal. Are they the same thing? Yeah, well, you're asking the wrong person. I decided I should write a blog post, but I realized I don't really have that much to say. So this will just be my thoughts as they come. Get ready. It's gonna be good.

1. I LOVE SUMMER. You get so many naps, stay up as late as you want, don't have to worry about homework. I have never appreciated summer as much as I do now.
2. It's so nice have your friends home from college. It actually makes it harder too though. Figuring out how to spend time with people and all.
3. I really like Chipotle and mac and cheese. Don't make me choose between them. Ever.
4. My sister left for Egypt today. I have mixed feelings about that one.
5. My dog got a haircut yesterday.
6. Wow, my life is so boring. All I have to talk about is my dog getting a haircut.
7. I had doughnuts this morning. God definitely had me in mind when he made those.
8. I feel like the music just got A LOT louder.
9. I'm not really that tempted to get a smart phone. If I had one, I would probably love it, but I'm okay without one for now.
10. I am spending a ton of money this summer. Things like a run(WHAT?), a concert, white water rafting, skydiving, birthday presents, wedding paraphernalia (I know I didn't spell that right), and of course, food.
11. I need chapstick.
12. I want to make another video. I should actually start doing that!
13. Seriously, I love summer.
14. I want to go to Oklahoma this summer, but I don't know if that will happen.
15. I always say things I regret.
16. I don't know how to use pintrest.
17. I think I was meant to be a dude, but everybody takes that the wrong way. First of all, I don't know how to use pintrest. I don't like shopping. I will probably NEVER cook for myself. Frozen foods and ramen all the way, yo! I love watching sports. I never wear make-up. Although I like dressing up, I do not like going all the way. Like heels? Nope. But whatever. People don't understand that. The only thing they think of when I say that is that I'm interested in girls. Which is in no way shape or form true AT ALL whatsoever in any lifetime. Just to be clear. Get your mind out of the gutter people.
18. I feel like I'm typing really fast.
19. People are surprised when I can type without looking.
20. Now I'm trying to type fast.
21. I should probably stop soon.
22. I REALLY need chapstick.
23. I got a text. Hold up a sec.
*reads text* <---Why did I do that?
24. It was from Catherine. Not surprised at all. She said she was gonna brush her hair. Yes, these are the conversations we have.
25. I only have 1 hour and 15 minutes left! Yay! I guess I'll stop and take out the trash sometime soon. Maybe.

Alright, love you. Bye.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Whale Nose

What have I been thinking about lately? Let me tell you. 18 years. (18 years and on the 18th birthday he found out it wasn't his). That's how long I've been single. It seems like a long enough time to perfect a person, right? Or at least mature them enough to be in a romantic relationship with another person. Well, I've been figuring out that it's different for everyone. I know people who got married at 18 and are still going strong. I also know some awesome 30- something year old people that are still not married.

This is honestly something that I've been struggling with lately. There have been times before where I've wanted a boyfriend, because it would be nice to have someone to cuddle with or to say nice things to me. Lately though, it's been a whole new struggle. Like it has made me question everything about myself. I have never had such low self esteem in my life as I've had these past couple of months. However, what I have been failing to realize is that God has been teaching me more things about myself during this time than ever before as well.

Some of the lessons that I have been learning are as follows:
1. I cannot wait around and anticipate all of the problems that are going to happen during the day. I have to just give my day to the Lord every morning and trust that he will handle all of my problems with ease.
2. I need to lower my expectations. I set such high expectations for experiences, friends, family, myself, and boys. I keep a journal for my husband (I know, super cheezballz), and I actually wrote an entry about lowering my expectations. Let me share just a snippet of it with you. One of the unrealistic expectations I have set for my husband is that I want him to love watching sports and be willing and happy to explain plays that I don't understand. The reality of that situation is this: What guy is going to want to take the time to explain every single call to me during the game. It'll probably be more like, "Wait, so that means..." "Just google it, Kristin!" Plus, what if he doesn't even like watching sports? I can't hold that against my husband! I have simply found myself having really high expectations for people or things and I always end up disappointed. Maybe I should say that I have too many expectations rather than too high expectations though.
3. Idols. This was a sermon that I heard a couple of weeks ago at church. The pastor gave a simple definition of the word: Anything you place above God. "Wow." I thought, "there are SO many things that I put above God." When I think about my daily routine, it exemplifies exactly where God is on my priority list. I usually do my devotions at night. That means I have just put school, work, working out, eating excessively, taking naps, talking with friends, facebook, worrying, and so much more above God. Recently, I have been trying to flip that routine around and start my day out with devotions. I have found that it makes me much happier during the day and a more enjoyable person to be around.
4. God longs to spend time with me. At another service the other night, the pastor said, "God's heart starts to beat faster when you spend time with him." I think that is one of the coolest things ever. Out of all the people in the world, God longs to spend time with me. A lowlife that messes up on a day to day basis. He knows all of my faults and failures yet still LOVES when I talk to him. He's jealous for me. No person could ever do that like Jesus does. The pastor encouraged us to take a little extra time each day to spend more time with the Lord. Lately, I've been enjoying my morning car rides just talking with Jesus. Although, I'm still figuring out how that's even supposed to work.
5. I am supposed to wait well. This has probably be the hardest lesson for me. I think it's usually this age in life where people get tired of waiting. I don't really know where I'm going in life. I want a boyfriend. I want summer. There are all of these things that I am so impatient for. I need to enjoy the NOW.  I need to appreciate everyday for what it's worth and find new opportunities. I must trust that God's timing is always perfect.

Although I cannot say that my self esteem issues have been fixed, I have realized that I need to find my value in God's love. I don't want people's pity, because I know that this is something I need to work out within myself. I am trusting that God is simply bringing me to the exact place that I need to be in before I'm in a relationship. He's not done with me. He needs to continue teaching me things about myself. My hope is that he is also bringing my future man into this place. :)

All of this just goes to say that God is awesome. He knows what He's doing, and I need to trust Him. I need to enjoy where I'm at in life and be content. Thanks, Jesus. Looking forward to the next lesson you have in store for me!

Finally, I'd like to leave you with some (what I think are) funny texting conversations from today.

1. Them: "Hey, my friend just said he saw you!"
Me: "Oh, really?? Just kidding. I saw him too. I just avoided eye contact. I make such horrible one second decisions!"
"Hahaha. That's so funny. I asked him if he said hi to you, and he said no. Then I asked him why and he said you were walking too fast! This is really funny to me!"

2. Me: "Maybe when I get to work you, me, and Patty can all do that burpee work out!"
Them: *nothing*
Me: "No? Are you afraid Patty's going to show you up? You know, I would much rather have people blow their nose than sound like a whale when they breathe."
Them: "What in the world?"
"What? It's physical geography. I have nothing else to think about."
"Hahaha. Couldn't you think about your future husband or something?"
"Who? Demaryius (Thomas)? Victor (Cruz)? Trust me. There are no possibilities in this class. It's easier for me to imagine someone blowing their nose."
"Hahahaha."

You see, I think I'm real funny.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Why I am Blessed

Can I please just say that God is awesome? He often puts things into perspective to me when I need it most. Here I sit, drinking some raspberry tea, listening to some really beautiful music on pandora, and watching my dog roll around in the snow. I am so blessed. Let me show you just a few reasons why.












And these are just a few of the reasons. 

Monday, February 11, 2013

My Awesome Jesus List

Today in Geography, I was getting really annoyed of this guy clicking his mouse. I thought about making a list of all the things that annoy me in that class, but then I decided that would probably just put me in a worse mood. Instead I made a list of things that make Jesus awesome. So here we go.


Why I Love Jesus
(In no particular order...)
1. Jesus still loves the kid who is clicking his mouse every millisecond even though he is probably playing solitaire.
2. Jesus knows that I lack patience, so He gives me many opportunities to display it.
3. Jesus helped me not get in a car accident last night. 
4. Jesus gave me such an awesome family that I fit in well with.
5. Jesus provided me with a scholarship that allows me to not have to pay for this fun class.
6. Jesus gave me a job that lets me pay for gas. (They rhymed!)
7. Jesus gave me a car.
8. Jesus loves Ranger.
9. Jesus led such amazing people into my life.
10. Jesus gave me Goodwill.
11. Jesus came up with awesome food.
12. Jesus forgives me every single time I do something wrong. 
13. Jesus knows exactly what my future looks like.
14. Jesus knew about the Pope resigning before the Pope even knew.
15. Jesus probably thinks its funny that humans want to know everything about everything, because He knows we never will.
16. Jesus let me see Janelle today.
17. Jesus made the entire earth... that's all I want/need to know about Geography.
18. Jesus blessed me with unlimited texting. Now I can stay in touch with people I love.
19. Jesus made Mrs. Wilmot.
20. Jesus made me appreciate photography. 
21. Jesus said, "Some people will want to drink something in place of coffee, so I'll make something called tea."
22. Jesus is looking out for my husband.
23. Jesus made water which I think is really great and useful.
24. Jesus loves me beyond comprehension.
25. Jesus has given me a new appreciation for glasses.
26. Jesus created me so that I would be bad at interviews for a reason.
27. Jesus teaches me lessons from my experience.
28. Jesus made colors! Who else could do that?
29. Jesus made music.
30. Jesus deserves all glory.
31. Jesus gave me hair which, when dry, helps keep me warm.
32. Jesus made dessert.
33. Jesus made my professor and knew that he would dress/talk like he does.
34. Jesus knew I was scared for Public Speaking, so he gave me an awesome professor.
35. Jesus cares about me as an individual even though there are billions of people on this Earth.
36. Jesus made laser pointers. 
37. Jesus knew that someday, somewhere, somebody would have oily hair, so he made shampoo especially for them.
38. Jesus created different languages.
39. Jesus took on all my sins so that I could join him in Heaven someday.
40. Jesus gave me all 5 senses.
41. Jesus has felt every single way that I've felt. 
42. Jesus also had to be on this stupid, failing, depressing earth for 32 (?) years.
43. Jesus knows how much I can handle and doesn't give me more than that.
44. Jesus believes in me WAY more than I believe in myself. 
45. Jesus made the earth tilt 23.5 degrees, giving us seasons.
46. Jesus led me to a legit Bible Study.
47. Jesus loves it when I crave him.
48. Jesus created sleep!
49. Jesus is peace.
50. Jesus knew that I would find myself hilarious. (It sounds weird, but sometimes I'll be having a really bad day, and I can cheer myself up. Well, Jesus does.)
51. Jesus created laughter.
52. Jesus made chapstick.
53. Jesus keeps his promises.
54. Jesus made different ethnicities... Thank ya Lord!
55. Jesus gave every single person a completely different story.
56. Jesus made candles.
57. Jesus will always provide for me. 
58. Jesus thought of a ton of different types of trees!
59. Jesus allows us to make mistakes and expects us to.
60. Jesus was forsaken by God so that I never had to be. 
61. Jesus is such a great listener.
62. Jesus provides the only way to have real joy.

And these are only a few! Why do you love Jesus?

Sunday, February 10, 2013

I love pictas

DAY 25: Something You Made:
There was supposed to be cilantro too, but my mom didn't want to buy any.

DAY 26: Color:
Day 27: Lunch:
This is actually my lunch from today. Tea and beans. 
Day 28: Light:
Day 29: Inside Your Fridge:
Day 30: Nature:
This is Colorado: Snow and sun
Day 31: You Again:
Yes, I am wearing the same sweater as day 1.

February Challenge
Day 1: Your View Today: 
I don't think this was actually the right day. I just like the fact that it was snowing.


Day 2: Words: 
Stupid English class.
Day 3: Hands
Skip a few for now...
Day 6: Dinner:

Spaghetti
Day 8: Sun:
It was also snowing during the picture.
Day 9: Front Door:
Day 10: Self Portrait:
Haha. I just woke up. 





Friday, February 1, 2013

Indonesia on the Brain

Guess what I did today. I began sponsoring a child! I'm so excited. I have a confession to make: I have not been giving part of my earnings to God lately. I know. It's actually pretty bad. So I've been thinking that I need to start giving an offering. Problem: not so big a fan of my church. I feel like if I were going to give to my church, I would only be giving half-heartedly. I was trying to figure out an alternate way to give that I would be passionate about it. Then, they were talking about sponsoring a child on the radio. I decided to look into and once I saw all of the little kids faces, I knew there was no turning back.

My boy's name is Rezal Rhamdani. I should be getting more information soon.

Anyways, thanks for listening! I'll keep you updated and add more pictures at a later date.

I just feel so good about this. Isn't he cute?

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Light Brown Sugar

DAY 18: Something You Bought:
Mirror pic!
DAY 19: Sweet:
DAY 20: Someone You Love:
I love this girl so stinking much.
DAY 21: Reflection:

DAY 22: Your Shoes:
I didn't even set this picture up!
DAY 23: Something Old:

My dad, being the cop he is, gave me and my sisters these when we were little. I remember sleeping with it. I had totally forgot about it even though it had been in my room this whole time.
DAY 24: Guilty Pleasure:

Youtube in general is my guilty pleasure, but especially Whose Line. 


Thursday, January 17, 2013

Overwhelming Format

This format is too much for me right now. Here is the easy way out.
DAY 11: Where you sleep. Nope, I never make my bed. Seriously. It's hard!
DAY 12: Close up. I love this thing way too much.
DAY 15: Happiness. Yes, I realize that I over-edited this. I also realize the my tooth is gray. I'm okay with all of these things right now. 
DAY 14: Something you're reading. You already know.
DAY 13: In your bag. Lots of florals, some money, an envelope, and my glasses case!
DAY 17: Water. My dad and I had fun with this one. 








Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Lost

Can I just vent a little bit? Thanks so much!

Lost. That's how I would describe myself in one word at this point in time. You know how people say that if you skip a semester of school, you'll never go back? I didn't want to go back to school just after Christmas break! I have a problem. I hate school.

If I was taking classes that I actually enjoyed going to, I feel as though it might be easier for me to have fun at school. Right now my favorite class is Public Speaking, so that should tell you something. I know that no one is preventing me from being happy besides myself.

Here's my problem. I have no stinking, flipping, freaking, pooping idea what I want to do with my life. My major is "undeclared" at this point in time and I need to change that quickly. In one of my classes, this kid said that he didn't have a specific major. The professor then asked him, "Do you like to learn though?" After the student assured him that he loved learning, the teacher said, "See, I think it's okay to not know what you're going to do as long as you love learning." Well, you see? This is bad news for me. I don't really enjoy learning unless it's something that I'm interested in. But come on! Who hears "You're going to learn subject-verb agreement this semester" and responds with, "Awwww yeah! I love learning!"? Certainly not me.

You may ask, "Why don't you take classes that you are more interested then?" Two words: My advisor. I'm in a tricky situation. I definitely shouldn't let my advisor rule my life and make it horrible, but she is the advisor for the scholarship that I received. As of now, I do not have to pay for any classes or books or anything. This is why I feel like I cannot speak up. If they're paying for me, I shouldn't waste my time and their money lullygagging with "fun" classes. At our last meeting, I asked her if I could take a fun class like photography or something. She immediately shot me down and said that I don't have time for that. I have to save it for MAYBE the second semester of my sophomore year.

Moving on. I need to decide what I want to do. I have seriously been begging God to just tell me. To physically have someone come up to me and say, "I think you would be a great..." I don't care who it is. Stranger, family, friend, acquaintance. I'll take anything at this point.

In short, I'm really fed up with life right now. I'm starting to feel like I am not cut out for the whole school thing anymore. I just need to make it through these rough patches though, right? Right.

I might have already said this. I think I did. But it's worth saying again. Jesus Calling. Sarah Young. Read it.

IT'S ABOUT TIME THAT I WHOOP LIFE'S BUTT!!! (and go to bed)

Friday, January 11, 2013

Update

I don't realize how much I get on facebook until I don't allow myself to get on for a little while. Anyways, it's super cold outside. I actually would somewhat enjoy the cold weather if it weren't for the stinkin wind. Like what the heck?

I'm working right now and we don't have any patients. I already ordered a bunch of trials and contacts, so hop off! I HAVE been doing work, okay? None of my fun co-workers (or bosses) are here right now either.

McDonald's is really good. Pitch Perfect is really funny. My shirt won't button. And everytime someone walks by, I minimize this. That has actually only happened once, so nevermind.

FYI the buttons on my shirt SLEVE won't button. It's not like I'm too fat. I just got them buttoned. Yay.

Blogs are a funny thing. It's keeping me entertained right now though. In case you couldn't tell, I have nothing of worth to say right now.

Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. Read it.

I got $120 for not very much work. I feel bad, but I don't know how I would return it. They should've just given me $100...or $40.

I should paint my nails. My lips are chapped. I like calling people more than answering phone calls. When you call, you have a set thing that you need to tell someone. When someone calls you, you have no idea what they're going to say. But let's face it, texting is best. People say they don't like texting and I so wish I could agree, but I don't really get it. Texting is so much easier to me.

I like vitamin water. Sometimes I worry that it's going to make lips all colorful like it used to do when I was little.

Yesterday a 3 year old wanted to do the air puff.

All my friends are leaving and I don't want to go back to school.

Such is life. Soups interesting, yeah?

Thursday, January 10, 2013

January

DAY 1~ You:
This was the night I was going a little crazy, so I apologize.

 DAY 2~ Breakfast:

Carnations Breakfast Essentials... gotta love it.

DAY 3~ Something You Adore:

Big sweaters all the way.
DAY 5~ Something You Wore:

DAY 6~ Makes You Smile:
 I really like football. And the quality time it gives me with my father.
DAY 7~ Favorite:
I sure do love my friends. 
DAY 8~ Your Sky:

DAY 9~ Daily Routine:
I usually do this on a daily basis. Super attractive, right?